Hey, hang in there. Keep searching. I’m still on the journey. I’m over 40 and recently diagnosed with ADHD and some form of bipolar/manic stuff.

Finally found a good head doc, meds etc. up until this, it was a slow but increasing downward spiral. I just became apathetic…to existence.

At work, I constantly felt imposter syndrome, couldn’t stay focused. Any minor mistake felt like the world was ending. At home, minor family drama felt like I was a complete failure as a husband, father and an adult.

Now? Most of all that is fading away. Still a ways to go but hope is in sight. I’ve began to recognize things that would have put me in a dark place. Now it mostly rolls off me.

So, to answer your question: It feels like every little mistake, insecurity etc is nothing more than a memory of shit that got to me. It’s a sorta weird poetic justice. Like seeing a bully get out in their place.

Edit: I’m sure you have but get some blood work done. Hormones, and Vitamin D levels. I’ve been struggling with vitamin D for a while now. It absolutely will cause issues if too low. It’s an “easy” fix with simple supplements. None of this is quick. Takes a few weeks generally to even begin to notice. But in time you should.

Mine was from one my dad killed in our yard. We then cooked it over bonfire that evening.

Got to thinking, it’s kinda like shrimp, but taste kinda like chicken. It’s been like 15 years.

Can’t remember =\ may have to reverse search it

Generally I’m not a fan. Personally I like cold, unassuming industrial stuff.

Something like

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Rattle snake is pretty good from what I can remember. Like chicken, but… different

Boxers.

Ha

I don’t understand why you’d install Debian before the hypervisor.

Edit: TiL thx for the replies. I legit didn’t know of these scenarios.

Usually take mine off. Though there are times I forget I’m even wearing them.

If I could have a convoy with my younger adult self - invest in decent beds.

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A lot of other organisms will eat their young. Kinda messed up. Some apes try ripping each other’s genitals off during fights. The insect world in general is pretty brutal tbh.

Really depends on the food and mood. Anywhere from basic crushed red pepper, Crystal, to ludicrous level stuff with ghosts and reapers.

I don’t use nuclear stuff as much due to intestinal stuff as I’m getting older though.

Also, for any upcoming spice hounds, pickle juice works very well to kill the burn, if you like pickles.

The topics of the show tend to deal with fairly high level concepts. Mixed in the chaos of interpersonal relationships.

The show to me has been a more twisted version of the superman paradox. A god living amongst mortals.

Same, buts been several years now. Att fiber. Don’t use their modem either (except post power outage to establish coms back then I remove it.) I do use a ddyns service just in case. But it’s been the same ip for years

Pivpn is the package to get. Makes wire guard dead simple to setup. Just have to do a port forward on your router

What hardware do you have already? Is pihole running on a rpi? Look into setting up wire guard or tail scale. Then you can have pihole on your phone while your not at home.

Go old school and setup some basic website with apache2.

It did change. One of the many changes listed. It’s using a different web server, I forget now, but moved away from the previous one.

I mean, the fastest method is likely to just plug the phone into PC and pretend it’s a flash drive?