Mine is porn addiction. I don’t ever want to become a coomer but I think I’ve became that already a few times in my life. I shamefully have watched porn, saved porn images and visualized people who’re probably not as into porn as I was.
I really do wish to be done with porn, it’s done nothing for me. I’ve masturbated for many years and I feel like it has hollowed out my mind. I don’t even get that much enjoyment from masturbating as much and the porn hasn’t really gotten any better so I guess I can say that I’ve seen porn when it was at its best when I was younger and everything.
Now all of it is just loli shit, artificial shit and that’s gross or the fetishes have gotten too niche and unappealing. I look around me in porn communities and I haven’t found anyone worthwhile to speak to or associate with. Everyone is six feet under in porn that there’s no way for them out.
I don’t consider myself a gooner or coomer or whatever, but there are days where I really feel like a fucking waste of a person due to how much I beat it. Sometimes I’m doing something else, but if I’m not focused, sometimes horny will just happen and that gets focus quite easily.
I know the best way for me to get rid of that is to block sites via
hostsfile, as it’s a slight annoyance to edit it in Windows (gotta open notepad as admin, then make it openc:\windows\system32\drivers\etc\hosts), which is already enough to make me give up and do something else. I have added a bunch, but there are many that aren’t blocked and it’s so damn easy to find them…My silver lining is that I don’t use the phone for porn, so I only need to step away from my computer to avoid porn altogether, but the PC is my main addiction that I’m not even trying to break.